Can I win at least fucking once????!!!!! Can I have least once have fresh breath???? Can I at least once by attractive???!!!!! Can I at least once be intelligent???!!!!! CAN I FUCKING WIN FOR ONCE???!!!!!
I'm a Total Loser Because...
I know I was a loser!!!! I just took the same college course for the 4th time and failed again!!! Failed again!!! Fucking Failed again!!!!! Is this my role in life???!! Was I meant to be a loser???!!!! I see what my purpose is now. I fucking hate smart people!!!!!! Why couldn't I be someone that's intelligent??!!!! Why do I have to be so fucking dumb!!!!!! I am sick of this shit!!!!!!! Sick of being dumb!! Sick of having bad breath!!!! Sick of being laughed at!!!! Sick of being humiliated!!!! I've been at my job for almost 6 years, and I sill haven't gotten a promotion!!! I sick of fucking people winning all the time and I can't win at least one!!!!!
I don't see why people think I am not a loser, but I have the qualifications of being a loser. I'm a nerd, I have no chance of having a girlfriend, I'm socially inept. Do I have to say that I'm a rare species of the Black American male?
From the moment I leave my apartment in the morning, people stare and laugh at me until I get home. Everywhere I go, I look up and see people laughing at tme.
I wonder how it feels to be a winner. I've been at my job for almost 6 years, and can't get a promotion. Sometimes, I hate being SPECIAL ED!!! Maybe if I was a smart person, I could do better in life. I also wonder how it feels not to have bad breath. Maybe if my breath wasn't so bad, I would finally get a kiss from someone. I also need serious work on my teeth, but I can't afford braces. Maybe if I was intelligent, I could get a college degree and could get a better job. Why do I have to be a TOTAL LOSER???!!!
A person called me an Uncle Tom because I'm a conservative-leaning independent and I though we needed a Republican president, but not Trump. Then, this person said that all white people are racist and that I was kissing white Americans asses. I didn't think being responsible and successful made you a loser Uncle Tom/Uncle Ruckus. What a loser I am.
I tried to take a college course and even the professor sees me as a loser. I wonder how it feels to be a winner. Everyone around me is either intelligent, talented, beautiful, handsome, and successful. I am neither. I do understand that there has to be a balance. For every winner, there has to be a loser.
Maybe one day, I won't have bad breath. Then maybe someone would actually come close to me or even like me. I don't know what smells worst; my ass or my breath.
I wonder how it feels to not be a piece of shit!!!!