I am 47 yo woman with two grown sons. Both had different fathers, both have hated me ever since I became pregnant.
I have NEVER had a relationship that lasted more than a few months, except one guy who was married and totally using me.
Everytime I date someone, I fall for the same crap....they start talking about future plans (vacations, etc) and I FALL FOR IT....HOOK LINE AND SINKER. I start falling for them and then they dump me. I can't even cry about it anymore, its so predictable.
I am professionally successful, average looking, and nice as I can be to everyone I meet. Yet I continually get dumped.
I even dated a guy who just got out of prison, figuring he would appreciate financial staability, if nothing else...guess what? dumped two months later.
I enjoy sex, and am told I am "great" in bed, so that's not it. I try very hard not to be clingy, dont expect gifts, dinners or anything...yet I still get dumped.
I am considering suicide because I do not want to be alone anymore. Actually, I am jealous of people who get cancer, because they get to die without the stigma. Maybe I could make it look like an "accident?"
I cant bear being alone anymore!!!!!